Her world crashes

With the news of her pregnancy Jenny had to stop taking her anti-anxiety and depression medication, which was sure to make for an interesting 9 months. She regularly got into fights with everyone she knew over things that didn't even matter. For some reason this made some people believe she was on drugs and suicidal.

The couple decided they needed to move and instead of saving money, they chose to not pay their current rent and save that to move. So of course they were served with eviction papers. In the meantime, Jenny had owed her mom $80 and her mom was adamant she pay her immediately. All at the same time, Jenny learned that Scotty had never paid any money toward his court fines as he said he did, which just pissed her off more. So now they were being evicted, a large part of their money to move was gone to her mom, and they were fighting. Jenny broke into a horrible panic attack and texted Sharon. She threw her mom's movies and Cd's down the stairs and told Scott her anxiety was so bad she felt like she needed to be admitted to a mental institution.

Scotty went downstairs and gave Jenny's mom the money she wanted and told her Jenny was freaking out and said "She wants to go to rehab." Her mom thought Jenny was on drugs instead of what was really meant by that comment, but nothing would change her mind after that.

"Can someone take Zach for a week? I don't have any idea where we're moving or what's going on anymore". Mark arrived at the door as Jenny bawled like a baby on the couch holding her son in her arms. She said, "I'm not sure where we're going to live or how I'm going to make this work, but I will." He replied, "Well, I'll make sure you get to see bub no matter what." She gathered up some of his favorite things and sent them on their way.

Somehow her text to Sharon was misconstrued to say that she was giving Mark custody of Zachary. Jenny's mom told everyone she was on crack very bad and needed to go to rehab especially since she was 5 months pregnant and Scott told everyone that she was cutting herself again as well.

The next day when Jenny texted Mark, she asked for him to bring Zach over to see her, he said "yes, but you cannot take him out of the car, he's mine now." "WHAT?! YOU CAN'T KEEP MY SON FROM ME- THIS IS ALL A MISUNDERSTANDING MARK!". He didn't care her reason, he told her her thought she was on crack and cutting herself and it was not a safe place for him to be. So Jenny got a ride to her doctor an hour later and was checked for cuts and got a drug test- all negative.

Did that prove anything to anyone? No. The cops all refused to help her get her son back because Mark had joint custody. No lawyers would help without charging way more than she had. There was nothing she could do. No one would help her and Jenny feared she'd never see her baby boy again.

Jenny went to Mark's apartment again begging for her son back but this time she got some interesting information. He showed her a computer print-out of Scotty's Sexual Predator Registration for rape of a minor. How could he have not told her this? They had already talk about marriage and were having a baby! She allowed him around her child and slept next to him every night!

She immediately confronted him. Maybe she was naive or maybe he was a great liar but he convinced her that he was telling the truth when he told her this story:
"I was at a party when I was 18, there was a girl there that was 15, we hooked up, everything was fine. The next day her boyfriend found out and she called the cops so her man wouldn't dump her. That's all that happened, I swear!"
She really needed it to be true. She didn't want to be a single mom to two babies. She didn't want him to be the monster that paper showed him as. She needed his story to be real, so she believed it, but she still couldn't let his record stand between her and her son. She made him go stay with his aunt Toni and she continued begging for her son back and bothering all the local cops on a daily basis.

She no longer spoke to her family at all. Her mom still believed she was on drugs and wouldn't have anything to do with her. She felt lost and alone. She sat outside listeing to the radio and writing in her journal. She cried and she cried and she begged God to relieve her pain. Mandy, her little sister, came outside and said, "awww go on and write your little suicide note, no one cares..". What if she had been writing a suicide note? How would she have felt if those were her last words to her sister? Jenny thought for a moment of the idea and then as she passed by again told her mom, "You need to keep that little bitch of yours in check before I fuck her up!" They left without care that Jenny, not being on her anti-depressants could have been heading upstairs to commit suicide, of course she wasn't, but how would they have known?

Melody called a week after he first took Zachary. Melody babysat Jenny and her little sister when they were kids and had always been a close family friend. She was also Kara's mom, Jenny's best friend. She used her friends at the local police station to go with her and Jenny to talk to Mark. Jenny got lucky and was able to talk Mark into letting her hold Zach and the cop said that since they had joint custody there was nothing he could do, whoever had him in their arms, got to leave with him.

Jenny got her pride and joy back after a long a stressful week.

Mr. Zachary, February 20, 2008

Lately you have been doing so much! You actually speak some words on a regular occasion now! You say Bye, Love you, and Momma. You’re using your communication board a lot. When you push a button and hear the word, you do the sign for that word! I can’t believe how smart you are little man! The other day at school, your attendant said you were standing up so good and trying to walk everywhere! You know how to take you clothes off, and it seems like every hour you are scooting down the hall stripping so that you can take a bath! How silly are you?!

You still go to your dad’s house every other weekend and stay for two nights, but thankfully you don’t scream and cry when he picks you up anymore. Now, you seem happy to go bye-bye no matter where it is and aren’t freaking out as much if I don’t always go with you. I’m glad you’re becoming so independent!

You know how to hold on to the coffee table and pull your self up to kneel next to it now, too! Of course, that means I have to be careful what I put on that table, but it’s ok, I don’t mind!

You’ve been doing really good at bedtime. It used to always be a battle to lay you down for bed, but now you only cry for a second, then get comfy and go to sleep. You still end up in bed with me and Jeff every morning, though! You always wake up early in the mornings, stand up and reach for me until I put you in the big bed with me!

I love you more than life itself little man! Never forget that!

Always, Mommy”